A Big Update...

I apologize for not updating this blog for quite some time, but now that I'm back, I have good news and bad news…

I’ll start off with the more positive story. We found Sephy! She was kidnapped by a rebellion group of Noughts. One of the members was her longtime friend, Callum McGregor. Yes - McGregor, the son of that rebellious family.

As much as I could gloat about her return, my stomach still churns at the thought of the changed woman she is since we last saw her. She’s became pregnant, with the child of Callum! I don’t know the details of the situation - whether this was at or against her will. All I can say is that the choice and responsibility to have and care for this child will be hers. She refuses to get an abortion, despite her father’s will. By rebelling against him she is pushing him away from any relationship he could have with this child.

I’m too in shock of the situation to form an opinion. Of course, I feel a natural disgust towards the child, but more so towards its father. Whether Sephy wanted the child or not, Callum should’ve been more in control of himself and not ruin her life. Having this child will set her back from her peers and make her a social outcast, a name we don’t dare to say in public. She’s ruining our family’s image and legacy! And the clear cause of all this trouble is Callum. He has certainly paid the price though. He was hung as punishment for his crimes, not only of getting Sephy pregnant but of all the damage he’s caused alongside the Liberation Militia over the years. A small part of me feels sorry for the child, who will never know their father, but my burning hatred for him shines through that feeling.

Despite my anger towards the situation, I have always wanted a grandchild. No matter how I treat the baby, I want to be part of its life, and it part of mine. I’ll try to conceal any disdain I feel towards the child… At least in front of it and Sephy.

Five years ago, I definitely could never see my life taking this turn. Would the old me be so tolerant? Would the old me be more responsible, and never get Sephy into this mess in the first place? What if I had successfully killed myself all those years ago… Would it be for the better or the worse?

I feel as if here is an appropriate place to end this blog; to end this chapter of my life as I open up a new one. I have no idea what the future has in store for me, but we can only hope for the best, but prepare for the worst.

~ Jasmine.